A
big photo of nothingness? Yup, that's about right. I do not have any
hope anymore. It's so easy for people to say "you'll have another", but
in reality, it's not that easy.
Ethan was 4 years, almost to the day, in the making. FOUR YEARS!
Ethan was supposed to be our "rainbow baby". The baby that comes after the storm of losing other babies. We didn't even know this term until he died. But we did see rainbows. Every single time we were worried about our pregnancy with him, rainbows would appear.
Why? We assumed it was meant as a sign that everything was going to be okay. Did we ever assume wrong.
Ethan was our third pregnancy. And our third loss. We were HOPING that when I was pregnant it would be our third time lucky. But look where that hope got us.
So when it comes to "hope", it's garbage and just another let down.
I hate quoting Glee but Sue Sylvester said it best:
"there is no lesson here, there is no happy ending, there's just nothing. he's just gone"
Ethan was 4 years, almost to the day, in the making. FOUR YEARS!
Ethan was supposed to be our "rainbow baby". The baby that comes after the storm of losing other babies. We didn't even know this term until he died. But we did see rainbows. Every single time we were worried about our pregnancy with him, rainbows would appear.
Why? We assumed it was meant as a sign that everything was going to be okay. Did we ever assume wrong.
Ethan was our third pregnancy. And our third loss. We were HOPING that when I was pregnant it would be our third time lucky. But look where that hope got us.
So when it comes to "hope", it's garbage and just another let down.
I hate quoting Glee but Sue Sylvester said it best:
"there is no lesson here, there is no happy ending, there's just nothing. he's just gone"
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