Six months ago, to the very hour, we left the house for the hospital. I was in labour and in so much pain but I was so excited to finally meet our baby.
I still can't believe that we came home empty handed, with the exception of some footprints, handprints, a lock of hair, some pictures and broken hearts.
I almost feel like I am numb. I don't really feel how I did at any of the other milestones yet it's almost 1am and I can't sleep.
I just miss Ethan so much. He was the cutest baby ever and I'm so angry that I don't get to watch him grow.
I think Ethan has forever changed me, whether for good or bad, I don't know.
Tomorrow's topic for Capture Your Grief is "identity" and I feel like I have lost mine.
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